I’m into my 9th week of being on Weight Watchers. I’m doing pretty good but today is one of those weigh-in days where it looks like no matter what I do, I wasn’t going to lose anything.
I hate these stages of a diet. But I’ve learned not to let it discourage me. I continue on with the day, watching what I eat as usual and keeping track with the Weight Watchers app on my phone.
For a while, I considered gastric bypass surgery but I did not find many favorable results in my research. It seems there wasn’t really any middle ground. Either it worked for some or it went terribly wrong for others. So I’ve decided to stick with what has worked for me in the past and that is Weight Watchers.
This last week has been a sad one. Two friends lost their spouses and while I’m sad for them and I do pray for them, I can’t help but go back to my own loss in 2008.
This coming August, it will be 13 years since he left me that Sunday morning. Such an odd number and sometimes hard to relive in my mind which I try not to do but it still replays over in my mind even though I try to stop it. That morning seems like it was yesterday and yet at the same time it also feels like it happened hundreds of years ago.
I’m not angry with God any more, although I still don’t understand why it had to be this way. I’ve dedicated my life “again” to Christ and I try to remember each day that He has a plan for me and He’s the only one who knows the reason why my dear husband is gone.
This month has been three years since I was baptized for the first time. I asked for forgiveness and I am now a “Child of God” with lots to learn.
I’m starting to write again so I will be working on the new book I started a few years ago. The first book I wrote tells of the journey I had, my thoughts and finally realizing I need God in my life. You can find it on Amazon in Kindle or paperback formats; Saved By His Amazing Grace: He Never Gave Up On Me https://amzn.to/307EDSJ
My second book will be learning to live a Christian life day by day. So many of the old ways that I was taught growing up, did not tell you how to live day by day. It was basically, “Ask for forgiveness, live for Christ and if you mess up, there’s no second chance.”
It doesn’t work that way. We are not perfect, only God is perfect and as long as we repent of our sins each day, read His Word (The Bible), try each day to live more like Christ, then we’ll have a better understanding of what God wants for us.
As I mentioned before, I still have a hard time understanding and dealing with death and loss and to put it bluntly, I’m scared of it and I keep searching for answers and for peace of mind.
My sister in law, Margie was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer at the beginning of 2019. She was told she had about another year to live. She didn’t quite make it. She passed away on October 29, 2019.
During her illness, we talked a lot about death and she wasn’t scared at all. One chapter of the book will be dedicated to Margie and with her permission I’ll share her thoughts during the last 10 months of her life and what it was like to know you only have limited time left.
I didn’t really intend for this post to be full of gloom and doom but I do have to admit, getting this out of my head has had a therapeutic result for me today.
This is why I recommend to everyone that they should be journaling or writing in a diary of some sort.
Our world these days is stressful, fast paced and we’re all affected in one way or another from this world-wide pandemic.
Have you noticed…
- Drivers seem to be more angry than usual?
- People are too quick to judge more than ever.
- The masks while I believe do help, they are creating anger in people behind the cloth we wear now.
We wonder if there will ever be a time again that we don’t have to worry about masks or wear them. Myself, I have anxiety when I wear one, so I don’t leave the house much. This is okay with me because I’m a home-body already but just the fact that I can’t go out when I choose to and without a mask irritates me.
Well, now that I’ve possibly put a negative spin on your day for which I do apologize, I do admit I feel much better.
There is positivity buried deep within my post today. You just have to look for it.
Philippians 4:8 “And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.”
Whoa, I did have a lot to write about this morning. I didn’t realize I’d written so much until I started to check it over.
I’ll leave you with a positive thought…
“Stay positive. Sometimes you don’t even realize you’re blocking your own blessings by thinking negatively and holding on to the past. Learn to let go.” -Germany Kent